My Agony and Confession

I know my life won't exist for a long time .. But when my time comes, hopefully all the people who loves me won't forget me. As i will be laying in a casket, no one knows when. I just want everyone smile and don't cry. Always know that I'll be looking down in heaven looking at you and smiling.

People do not knows that I have this kind of sickness .. My terrible Ulcer, even my family members do not know this thing I had. Well .. If someone would be reading this, Now they know .. I cough Blood and my neck is aching. I don't really know the purpose why did I wrote this and post this in my blog. Well as for my readers and people who know me, I just want to "Thank You" for being part of my life. I might forget your names and faces, but I won't forget the memories and times we had.

Time to time, I know .. I'll be weaker and weaker. Physically I am. Mentally and Emotionally I'm not. However, with this agony I am experiencing .. I know that soon and sooner I'll be giving up. To all of you guys, please don't forget what I've done. All the things I did, All the things I give and All the things we shared, Regret? None of them. I'll be cherishing all the things we had. If only life and love is a Game, I want a rematch ..

While I'm still alive, I want to do all the best before I leaved this life that I borrowed from God to the people I loved. My Family, My Siblings and Special People around me. I am sad .. I am indeed also crying as for I know some of my dreams are meant to be broken.

For now, My strength are the people who I loved and As I still breath, I won't be giving them up. However, Someday .. I might not wake up in another day and won't see a Sun for a coming day.

If I die, See you at the Cross Road guys .. "I love you" ..

Music of a Heart

Love? WTF is that. Really, when I was still young. I hated love and being loved even though some people used to loved me. Back then All I know is to make my life's miserable ..

Now, I am in love with a Girl .. This girl named Nickcelle Cruz. Idk, I just loved her. We've been almost going 3 years now since I had her when August 25, 2007. Ah~ The tone, the tone of the loved singing like Ooh-Ohh~ to Ohh LahLah~ ..

However, currently my Girl is confused. She was likely asking for a Break Up and seems the music from her fades .. I don't know what to say and what to do .. As of now, Only god~ God will tell what would happen .. Hoping still to have her and marry her .. She's the only girl i spent my life with love for a long time .. I loved her, really Loved her. I want to feel the music from her heart again .. ='c