My Agony and Confession

I know my life won't exist for a long time .. But when my time comes, hopefully all the people who loves me won't forget me. As i will be laying in a casket, no one knows when. I just want everyone smile and don't cry. Always know that I'll be looking down in heaven looking at you and smiling.

People do not knows that I have this kind of sickness .. My terrible Ulcer, even my family members do not know this thing I had. Well .. If someone would be reading this, Now they know .. I cough Blood and my neck is aching. I don't really know the purpose why did I wrote this and post this in my blog. Well as for my readers and people who know me, I just want to "Thank You" for being part of my life. I might forget your names and faces, but I won't forget the memories and times we had.

Time to time, I know .. I'll be weaker and weaker. Physically I am. Mentally and Emotionally I'm not. However, with this agony I am experiencing .. I know that soon and sooner I'll be giving up. To all of you guys, please don't forget what I've done. All the things I did, All the things I give and All the things we shared, Regret? None of them. I'll be cherishing all the things we had. If only life and love is a Game, I want a rematch ..

While I'm still alive, I want to do all the best before I leaved this life that I borrowed from God to the people I loved. My Family, My Siblings and Special People around me. I am sad .. I am indeed also crying as for I know some of my dreams are meant to be broken.

For now, My strength are the people who I loved and As I still breath, I won't be giving them up. However, Someday .. I might not wake up in another day and won't see a Sun for a coming day.

If I die, See you at the Cross Road guys .. "I love you" ..